The idea of "My Bosom Buddy" was born in September, 2023, while out on one of my morning walks with two dear friends. At the time, it was a partial joke but both of my friends expressed the opinion that I should seriously consider the venture.
I became very excited about the notion of sharing my gifts with the world at large, even if I had no idea what that meant. I know that I am great at what I do. And I love doing it! Nothing makes me feel more alive that witnessing people have those "Ahh-Haa" moments!
My love of helping people was quickly overshadowed by the overwhelming task of creating My Bosom Buddy. I became hyper focused on creating content for social media, and creating workbooks, challenges, webinars, funnels, landing pages... etc., etc., etc.
I also became very aware of how saturated social media seemed to be with other people who already figured this out that claimed to be making millions of dollars every year. And I developed that subconscious dialogue of "What's the point in doing this? You will never be as good as these people..."
Soon my feelings of ineptness, coupled with the anxiety of creating my brand and developing my message took over. And I was no longer excited about just helping people. I slowly created Instagram posts, and I reworked all of my prefabbed workbooks over and over again. I completely turned inward, and forgot the reason I was excited for this venture to begin with.
This morning's daily routine started off the same with me meditating for a while, and doing my daily tarot pull. I sat in silence for about ten minutes and then picked up the deck. I shuffled my cards for a few moments before I even realized that my mind was still in meditation mode. I closed my eyes and asked "What skill do I need to improve before I can share my gift with the world?"
I became very excited about the notion of sharing my gifts with the world at large, even if I had no idea what that meant. I know that I am great at what I do. And I love doing it! Nothing makes me feel more alive that witnessing people have those "Ahh-Haa" moments!
My love of helping people was quickly overshadowed by the overwhelming task of creating My Bosom Buddy. I became hyper focused on creating content for social media, and creating workbooks, challenges, webinars, funnels, landing pages... etc., etc., etc.
I also became very aware of how saturated social media seemed to be with other people who already figured this out that claimed to be making millions of dollars every year. And I developed that subconscious dialogue of "What's the point in doing this? You will never be as good as these people..."
Soon my feelings of ineptness, coupled with the anxiety of creating my brand and developing my message took over. And I was no longer excited about just helping people. I slowly created Instagram posts, and I reworked all of my prefabbed workbooks over and over again. I completely turned inward, and forgot the reason I was excited for this venture to begin with.
This morning's daily routine started off the same with me meditating for a while, and doing my daily tarot pull. I sat in silence for about ten minutes and then picked up the deck. I shuffled my cards for a few moments before I even realized that my mind was still in meditation mode. I closed my eyes and asked "What skill do I need to improve before I can share my gift with the world?"
At first glance, that Five of Swords had me scratching my head for a minute. To the point, that I skipped over it and read it last... something I hardly ever do!!
Reversed Six of Swords - I am lacking trust that life will support me and bring new rewarding experiences. I must find belief in myself and my sense of purpose.
The Star - Remove my limiting beliefs and live my most authentic life. Be open and listen to the voice within. I have an open heart and I want to give back the blessing that I have received so that others may benefit. Have faith and trust in your own abilities.
The Five of Swords - But that FIVE!!! For me the Five of Swords signifies some hostile relationship or feelings toward another person that I need to consider. The Five of Swords has also helped me realize that it was time to walk away from toxic relationships. but what did any of this have to do with this questions... In all my years of using tarot, I always saw the Five of Swords to signify outward force or being. It wasn't until this morning that I considered that I was being my own worst enemy. I have started down this road with the intention of spreading love and light, and helping people. And I have allowed myself to be consumed by ego. I am self-sabotaging my efforts. I am involved in a make-believe competition in a game that does not exist.
Question: "What skill do I need to improve before I can share my gift with the world?"
Answer: "Nothing. The I need to have faith that life will support me. Remove my limiting beliefs and trust my inner knowing. The only thing getting in my way, is me!"
That is the great thing about using tarot as self-reflection tool. They have a way of helping you see those things that you would rather ignore. It would be much easier for me to blame the world for my shortcomings. But in reality, the only shortcoming I have is hiding from the world.
Reversed Six of Swords - I am lacking trust that life will support me and bring new rewarding experiences. I must find belief in myself and my sense of purpose.
The Star - Remove my limiting beliefs and live my most authentic life. Be open and listen to the voice within. I have an open heart and I want to give back the blessing that I have received so that others may benefit. Have faith and trust in your own abilities.
The Five of Swords - But that FIVE!!! For me the Five of Swords signifies some hostile relationship or feelings toward another person that I need to consider. The Five of Swords has also helped me realize that it was time to walk away from toxic relationships. but what did any of this have to do with this questions... In all my years of using tarot, I always saw the Five of Swords to signify outward force or being. It wasn't until this morning that I considered that I was being my own worst enemy. I have started down this road with the intention of spreading love and light, and helping people. And I have allowed myself to be consumed by ego. I am self-sabotaging my efforts. I am involved in a make-believe competition in a game that does not exist.
Question: "What skill do I need to improve before I can share my gift with the world?"
Answer: "Nothing. The I need to have faith that life will support me. Remove my limiting beliefs and trust my inner knowing. The only thing getting in my way, is me!"
That is the great thing about using tarot as self-reflection tool. They have a way of helping you see those things that you would rather ignore. It would be much easier for me to blame the world for my shortcomings. But in reality, the only shortcoming I have is hiding from the world.
